- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to fear that I won’t be able to live up to others
expectations, as how they would like me to be and thus would allow myself to
suppress myself just because of a desire to please others idea of how I should
be and thus created and lived in a constant fear of people realizing that I am
not the one they want me to be. Within this I see and realize that “others
expectations” is only based on my perception of what others want from me so thus
I am trying to please my idea of how I think that others want me to be and thus
I bring the point back to self and realize that I am only trying to live up to
my idea/belief of how I should be for others to like me and within this I see
and realize that I am just trying to adjust myself because of a
desire/want/need for others acceptance/others liking me.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to define and place my self-worth and self-value
into how I think others see me.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to suppress and limit my self-expression because of
fear of others not liking me because of who I am as the expression of me.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to judge myself when and as I experience it as if I
have done/said something wrong – because of an idea and belief that I must live
up to my perception of how others want me to be, so that they won’t reject me.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to fear others rejection and thus allowed myself to
define myself according to my perception of what others think of me and within
this never allowed myself to accept myself unconditionally but instead made
myself dependent on others not rejecting me for me to be able to accept myself.
I see and realize the dishonesty and separation from myself within only accepting
myself if and when I am not being rejected so thus I commit myself to stop and breathe
when and as I see that I am going into fear of being rejected and instead I see
and realize that that does not change who I am nor my value. I commit myself to
stand up for myself and live for ME.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to fear that others will reject me because of a
belief and idea that that would mean that I am worth-less – not seeing and realizing
that I am projecting my responsibility onto others when and as I expect others
to give me my self-worth. I do not accept or allow myself to continue placing
my self-worth into my perception on how I think others see me/if they like me
or not – but instead I commit myself to stand up for and as myself and stop
defining myself and my self-worth according to how I think others think about
me.
- I commit myself to stop myself when
and as I see that I am changing my expression because of fear of what others
might think about me and instead I express me for me and I realize that others
can take it or leave it because I won’t allow myself to continue adjust and
mold myself just to fit into my perception on how others want me to be – within
this I commit myself to stand up for myself and live me, as who I am and
express myself within and as my life – to not accept any more limitation and
suppression of myself and my expression. I stand here for and as life and I do
not accept or allow any more self-diminishment towards myself.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that a relationship needs a
”spark” for it to work and thus when I wouldn’t experience that ”spark” I would
go and look for it elsewhere – not realizing that the ”spark” is energy for and
of the mind and since we have deliberately taken that out of our relationship
my mind can’t thrive and thus it is only my mind who needs/wants/desires that
”spark” since it is the energy that it needs to sustain itself/sustain in
control and power over me.
- I forgive myself that I haven’t
accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the “spark” is never
eternal since it is based on energy of and within the mind and thus it will run
out and so does the relationships when it is based on an energy of the mind. I
now see and realize that I am manipulating myself within my mind to think and
believe that a relationship needs a spark, when that is in fact just a sign of
me participating within my mind, wanting to give my mind energy through and
within a relationship. I realize that this is why we as humanity has never been
able to stay with one partner for the rest of our lives – because the
relationship is based on an energy-game in where we think and believe that we
need some kind of “spark” to be able to stay with the partner. I now see and
realize that when I follow that energy of and within the mind I will never
stand up for what is best for me as life and I won’t be trustworthy since I am
giving my power away and being directed by the mind. I do not accept or allow
myself to continue thinking and believing that one must have a “spark” in one’s
relationship but instead I see and realize that this is deliberate deception
since I see and realize that the energy will always run out. I commit myself to
stop feeding my mind energy and instead stand up with and as
self-responsibility through walking my agreement in self-expression, and
pinpoint the situations that I see that I am “trying to achieve/attain a spark”
and instead realize that that was just an indication of and from my mind that I
haven’t been disciplined within stopping my thoughts and back-chat – so thus
within this I commit myself to stop my thoughts and back-chat and instead walk
within and as my agreement in this physical reality.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that my thoughts and
back-chats are based on reality and because of that would believe it and judge
myself according to it. Within this I see and realize that I am going even
deeper into my mind and deception when and as I allow myself to judge myself
for the thoughts and back-chats that I have and I realize that the easiest way
out of this is to just stop immediately instead of having to go into a state of
self-judgment and self-blame. I commit myself to stop my thoughts and back-chat
and realize that it is not to judge or blame myself for what is popping up – it
is to breathe and walk myself into the physical reality instead. I commit
myself to stop taking my thoughts and back-chats so seriously and within that
realize that it is actually just thoughts/back-chats and thus it is just to
stop and start walking in self-honesty again within communicating what is going
on instead of trying to suppress my thoughts and back-chats through judging it
as “wrong” and “embarrassing”.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to suppress and hide my back-chats and thoughts
from my partner and myself because of an idea and belief that it being wrong
and thus going into judgment against myself based on the back-chats and
thoughts that have surfaced and trying to stop it within my mind as judgment –
not seeing and realizing that my stopping is impossible when I allow myself to
first go into self-judgment, self-blame and self-hate. I thus see and realize
that within this I need to communicate what is going on and stop suppressing
myself because of an idea and belief that my thoughts and back-chats are
“wrong”. I see and realize that I am preventing myself and my agreement from
expanding when I am hiding behind self-judgment. Instead I commit myself to
reveal my thoughts instead of trying to suppress them because of a perception
of the thoughts being wrong and instead realize that thoughts are just thoughts
– I am the one placing a value into the thoughts through going into reaction
towards the thoughts. I thus see and realize that I am responsible for how I
experience the thoughts so thus I commit myself to stop and breathe when and as
I see that I am going into an energetic reaction towards my thoughts and
instead I just stop. I realize that it is so much easier to just stop the
thoughts and not place any value into them than what it is to first go into
self-judgment and defining myself according to the thoughts and seeing them as
wrong and then trying to stop them.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am the worst person
alive – all because of my thoughts and within this not realizing that I am the
one defining myself according to my thoughts and thinking that they are real as
who I am – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that my thoughts are
illusions – my actions are reality and thus when I allow myself to act according
to my thoughts I am allowing myself to be directed and giving my power away to
the illusions and thus not standing up for and as life. Thus I commit myself to
just stop when and as I see that I am going into self-judge and self-defining
myself according to my thoughts and instead I walk myself as the directive
principle of me in this physical reality in where I do not allow any more
bullshit from and of my mind to direct me. I realize that thoughts are just
thoughts and thus I commit myself to stop fearing an illusion and instead
realize that my actions are what matters.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed my thoughts to come in between/sabotage me and my partners
sex-life in where I am not standing with and as self-disciplined stopping but
instead allowed the thoughts to flow freely just because of me trying to stop
them within and through self-judgment, self-blame, self-hate and self-rage –
not realizing that all it takes is just to stop and let go but that I sabotaged
for myself through first going into judging the thoughts and defining myself
according to the thoughts and thus because of that would go into boredom and
into an experience of “is it over soon” just because I saw the thoughts as
overwhelming. I now see, realize and understand that I have made myself
inferior to my mind as the thoughts that come up during sex and within that
believed that it is difficult/hard to stop – when all the while all it took was
one breath, but that I made it complicated through going into judge and blame
due to the thoughts. In the continuation I commit myself to just stop and
breathe, within the realization that it is just thoughts, illusions, within and
of my mind so thus I do not accept or allow myself to take it so damn serious
but instead I just stop and let go and bring myself back to the physical
expression.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to go into a state of inferiority to my mind as the
thoughts and back-chat and within that have manipulated myself into an
experience of self-pity and feeling sorry for myself as if I am a “victim” to
my thoughts and within that done so deliberately so that I wouldn’t have to
take responsibility for the thoughts through seeing that I am one and equal to
the thoughts and thus through standing up and stopping but instead allowed the
thoughts to flow freely within me, directing how I would experience and express
myself. Till here no further – I do not accept or allow myself to continue the
manipulation and self-sabotage through going into self-pity and feeling sorry
for myself as if I were a victim to my own thoughts but instead I commit myself
to stand up from that state of inferiority through stopping myself when and as
I see that I am bombarding myself with thoughts and instead I bring myself to
the physical through moving myself to do something in the physical when it gets
too much – I commit myself to make a statement in the physical through standing
up from the thoughts and moving myself here in what I am doing – I bring my
power back to self and I do not accept or allow myself to victimize myself
anymore through judging myself according to the thoughts – instead I just stop
and I stand up!
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to deliberately try to fuck up/sabotage my
agreement because of fear of being the one ending up being “hurt” if my partner
breaks it off first and within this not seeing and realizing that I am
sabotaging but instead just followed my instinct to run away as a
protection-mechanism to not having to go through that experience of being “hurt”.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that only when I am loved by
others can I achieve ”good enough” – and thus allowed myself to go “out there”,
trying to get others appreciation/validation/confirmation because of a delusion
that that would make me experience “good enough” – not realizing that I can
only experience “good enough” for so long since it is an energy within and of
my mind and that immediately when I do not get or perceive it as if I get
others appreciation/validation/confirmation I will go into a state of mind in
where I see myself as not good enough – and thus jumping from polarity to
polarity instead of standing up in such moments, realizing that I am existing
in a never-ending-cycle-construct in where I will never, ever attain an eternal
experience of being “good enough” when and as I am trying to reach that through
getting others “love”. I see, realize and understand that I am making myself
inferior to my mind and to others through thinking and believing that I need
others appreciation/validation/confirmation for me to be able to be “good enough”
and I see that when my experience of being “good enough” is based on how others
perceive me – I am perpetuating the enslavement to that experience and
perception and thus will never be able to walk stable. I do not accept or allow
myself to continue searching for an experience of being good enough through
trying to get others to “love” me but instead I commit myself to walk myself out
of that experienced energy that I attain when I perceive it as if someone else
is appreciating me and instead I realize that it is an energetic experience so
thus it is not real, which means that I will jump from that “positive”
experience to the polarity as an “negative” experience and within that I keep
myself enslaved to that constant search for reaching that positivity again.
Within this I realize that I will never become stable or experience acceptance towards
myself when I am trying to reach and attain it “out there” so thus I commit myself
to walk and breathe myself out of that experience of “positivity”/”negativity”
dependent on others and Instead I realize that I am feeding the
never-ending-cycle so thus I stop and I bring myself back to stability in this
physical reality – in where I accept myself unconditionally, no matter how
others treat/see me.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am only “good enough”
if and when I get the highest grade/most marks in school and thus would define
myself according to the grade that I get in where nothing except the highest
score is acceptable. Instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that it isn’t
actually about the grade/score/marks – because even when I get the highest
grade I am still not satisfied/seeing myself as good enough but instead I will
go into a state of fear of loss in where I will experience stress and anxiety
within the fear of not maintain that grade so thus constantly worry and fear “losing”
that grade and thus remaining in that constant search for good enough/perfection.
I now see, realize and understand that it is not meant for me to experience
good enough, ever – because then it would mean that I go into fear of loss so
thus I acknowledge situations in where I see that I am consciously trying to
push myself towards the experience of “good enough” and I realize that the
experience of being “good enough” is equivalent to “fear of loss” and thus it
is a never-ending-construct in where I just remain in that energy-game, trying
to please my mind – when all the while my minds intension was just to
attain/get energy and I am constantly giving it energy/power over me through
remaining in this construct of not being good enough/fear of loss. Within this
I see and realize that it is possible to attain/get the highest grade without
me participating with the starting-point of wanting to achieve “good enough”
and thus go into “fear of loss” – but instead attain the highest grade/most
marks through directing myself to do what is required, without doing it with
the starting-point of fear/self-definition. I commit myself to walk the school
within and as self-direction and instead of going in with the intension of
trying to validate/confirm myself through getting the highest score I just
direct myself in the physical with self-discipline to do what is necessary to
be done and I stop that energy as the experiences of fear/anxiety/stress/worry/self-definition/striving
for perfection - and instead I breathe through that with the realization that nothing
will change in this physical reality due to what grade I receive.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that when and if the apartment
is messy then that is a sign of me not being disciplined enough to
clean/organize and thus connecting that experience/belief of not being
disciplined enough to and as me not being good enough. I now see and realize
that I am actually not defined by my environment and I realize that when I
allow myself to connect having a messy apartment to me not being good enough I
am actually giving my power away to that experience and will thus become so
drained and low because of that experience – and thus instead of just
organizing/cleaning I give my energy away to the mind, participating within the
experience of not being good enough. I see, realize and understand that it is
so much easier to just move myself into taking care of the apartment and doing
one thing at a time and that I am sabotaging for myself when and as I allow myself
to go into my mind, drowning myself with the experience of not being good enough
and thinking “where should I start?” and thus going into overwhelmingness/too-much-ness.
When and as I see that the apartment needs to be organized/cleaned I move
myself to take on one thing/part at a time and thus prevent myself from going
into the mind as the energy-experience of not being good enough. When and as I
see that I am going into an experience of me not being good enough and
judging/defining myself according to the “mess” – I stop and I breathe – I realize
that I am paralyzing myself through allowing myself to go into that experience
so thus I just stop and I walk the physical steps that needs to be walked. I
realize that I can use the time more effectively through instead of judging and
defining myself according to the mess instead just take that time to clean
something/organize something. Within this I realize that organizing/cleaning is
not what is hard/tough/rough – what is hard/tough/rough is to participate
within the mind – so thus I commit myself to just breathe and realize that
moving myself is so much easier than sitting, paralyzed, complaining to myself
about how much it is that needs to be done.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that asking for help is a sign
of not being good enough and thus prevented and limited myself from asking for
assistance/support when I would need it, all because of the ego within and of
the mind, thinking and believing that if I ask for help then I am weak and that
it is a sign of not being good enough. I now see, realize and understand that
it is actually the complete opposite, that when I allow myself to let go of the
ego and actually ask for help/assistance/support I am in fact letting go of the
ego within the mind and instead I stop giving my power away to an idea and
belief of and within my mind saying that I am inferior if I ask for help. I see
and realize that I am actually making myself inferior when I do not allow
myself to ask for assistance but instead give up and give in to the voice
within my head and I realize that I am preventing myself from growing/expanding
when I am trying to make everything on my own. I commit myself to realize that
I am equal to others and thus within this I commit myself to ask for
help/assistance/support when I require it and thus I stop myself from going
into that experience of not being good enough through realizing that I am actually
preventing myself from expanding if I never get others point of view.
- I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted
and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that searching and striving
for becoming “good enough” within my mind will, inevitably, lead to experiences
of depression, sadness, inferiority, self-judgment, self-hate, self-rage and
misery because experiences of and within the mind as the positivity I
experience when I reach a “goal” that I once perceived/valued as perfection
will soon fade when I will within my mind always come up with new ”goals” and
ideas/beliefs/perceptions of what perfection/good enough is. Thus I see and
realize that when I am trying to reach good enough I am actually just laying
out a foundation of misery for myself because even when I reach the idea,
belief and perception of “good enough” I will change the definition once more
within my mind so that I can always strive for “more” and within that
perpetuating my enslavement and addiction to my mind. I commit myself to realize
and flag-point situations in where I see that I am deliberately moving myself
to please my desire to be/become “good enough” and instead I stop my delusion
through realizing that walking that path will not lead anywhere except deeper
into the mind and thus become a prisoner to my own creation. I stop here, I
will not accept or allow myself to continue being directed and controlled by
the desire/want/need to become “perfect” as the mind’s definition of “perfection”/”good
enough” – but instead I perfect myself through directing myself out of the mind
and instead walk myself in this physical reality in where I commit myself to
only trust that which is real, tangible, here – as life.
- I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that when others doesn’t seem
to appreciate/like me it is because I am not attractive enough and thus going
into an experience of not being good enough/perfect and accordingly define
myself according to my appearance in where I judge how I look and create a
belief and perception that if people do not seem to appreciate/validate/confirm/love
me it is because I am not pretty/attractive enough – within this I see and
realize that I have allowed myself to place my self-value/self-worth into my
perception of how others see me and accordingly constantly think and believe
that how others see me/treat me is dependent on how they think I look on the
outside and thus thinking and believing that if someone doesn’t love/appreciate
me it is because I am not perfect/good enough on the outside and thus would go
into self-blame, self-hate and self-judgment towards my physical appearance,
thinking and believing that if only I was pretty/attractive then people would
appreciate me more and thus I would be able to see myself as good enough. I now see, realize and understand that I am
deliberately going into that experience of thinking and believing that others
judge me according to my appearance and will love/hate me according to how I
look because I, myself judge and define me according to how I perceive myself
to look and will accordingly experience myself as either
carefree/expressional/happy at times in where I perceive myself as attractive
or will go into an experience of depression/sadness/seclusion at times in where
I see and perceive myself as ugly and thus perceive it as if it is others who
judge/define me according to how I look – when all the while it was me judging
myself but I would project that onto others so that I wouldn’t have to take
self-responsibility for what I allow within myself but instead would remain in that
constant search for others validation/confirmation. I now see, realize and
understand that when I accept myself unconditional I won’t experience myself
differently dependent on how I perceive others to see me or how I perceive
myself to look so thus I commit myself to stop defining myself according to my appearance
in where I will judge and experience myself according to my perception of how I
look on the outside. When and as I see that I am judging the reflection of myself
in the mirror and going into either happiness/sadness dependent on my
perception of my appearance – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am seeing
myself through the veils of judgment within and of my mind and that I am
feeding my mind with energy and making myself inferior to that experience
through accepting it as me – instead I do not accept or allow myself to
perpetuate that enslavement and experience through taking it seriously but
instead I commit myself to just WALK AWAY FROM THE FUCKING MIRROR and realize
that the picture I see is not who I am, I am not defined by the reflection in
the mirror – I am not a picture – I stand up as and for life and I walk away.
- I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted
and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I have deliberately made
it impossible for myself to achieve “good enough” and perfection – and that
this is actually something that I have done as a manipulation-tactic to always
remain enslaved to that strive towards becoming an idea and perception within
my mind as “good enough” and thus allowed that to keep me busy every day of my
life since the goal was intentionally set up to be unachievable. I see and
realize that this keeps me busy from actually stopping and standing up as the
directive principle of me and thus this is manipulation from and of my mind in
where I stand within a never-ending-cycle of wasting my life to try and achieve
good enough and within that constantly and continuously give my power away to
my mind through feeding it the energy that it requires to sustain in control
over me. Within this I realize that I am enslaving myself to the mind and will
continue doing so as long as I allow myself to remain in that strive to become
good enough/perfect – I see and realize that it is deliberately made up to be
unachievable so thus when and as I see that I am going into that game and strive
to attain/reach “good enough” – I stop and I breathe – I acknowledge that I
have gone into that never-ending-cycle once more and I realize that it will
never take me anywhere – only deeper into my mind in where I am constantly enslaving
myself through feeding it the energy that it gets through me giving in/giving
up to the desire to be “good enough”. I see and realize that “good enough” is
only an illusion and that my mind is constructed to never, ever reach “good
enough”. Thus I commit myself to instead realize that “good enough” was always
here, in the physical reality, but that I allowed myself to neglect and
disregard that because of a belief and perception of the ability to experience
good enough within my mind. Within this I realize that the one and only way to achieve
“good enough” is to actually stop that strive and realize that I am enough in
this physical reality – and thus when I stop the mind and instead stand up here
in the physical – there is no good/bad – it is only me, here, breathing.
